I pulled it off the wall and held it in my hands
The cold steel and wood turned a boy into a man
I held the hammer back, fingers all red from the rust
And I knew exactly where daddy hid the shells from us
I left a note by the stove saying I wouldn't be too long
I didn't want mama to call or come looking where I had gone
I been blinded by the pain and I own only had one thought
I set off for the woods, pockets jangled while I walked
My hands were shaking, oh, so bad
I could hardly hold that gun
I shoved a round into the magazine
It was my last chance to run
If this is a cry for help, I'm crying out loud
"Help me understand"
When I let it go and it hit the ground
Turns out God had other plans
I felt the hand of God as he led me off that ledge
I left the rifle lyin' there in the leaves with my regrets
Silhouette still in the paint where it hung up on the wall
Reminded me that I was saved when I could have lost it all
My hands were shaking, oh, so bad
I could hardly hold that gun
I shoved a round into the magazine
It was my last chance to run
If this is a cry for help, I'm crying out loud
"Help me understand"
When I let it go and it hit the ground
Turns out God had other plans
My hands were shaking, oh, so bad
I could hardly hold that gun
I shoved a round into the magazine
It was my last chance to run
If this is a cry for help then I was crying out loud
But now I understand
When I let it go and it hit the ground
Turns out God had other plans
